Communicat-ion-ing-ness

Communication is a simple concept but very complicated to put into practice. Performing the process of conveying what is in your own brain to make sense in someone else's brain has created a dilemma since the beginning of time. Maybe even a little before that, but I don't know. All I know is that I am really bad at it.  I forget what I have or haven't said and what is relevant. If you are someone who I talk to I will usually repeat the same story to you several times because I keep a running tally of the funniest/interesting things in my life and then tell them to everyone I see for the next few days until something funnier or more interesting comes along. That is when I remember to communicate with people. I am a face person, when you are with me I give you my time, however when you are not with me I do nothing. I blame this on a mixture of being forgetful and having no concept of time/time management skills. So when I finally remember I should talk to people it is at a really bad time like 6 o'clock in the morning or 11 o'clock at night or I just don't know where my phone is or no one is on Skype or I have no idea what I would email anyone about in the first place. 

This is a graph to gauge lack of use and skill in communications, you can see where I fall. I feel like I should do a ton, like talk for 2 hours, spend the day with someone or write a 3 page email to make it count.  This is the problem with having an excellent imagination you imagine that you need more than you actually do. Though my imagination isn't really the problem as it is the distractions I get by getting on my computer.  Computers are amazing creations, but they still have so much on them that doesn't mean anything which some how demands all of my time. The internet is your best friend if you want to waste your time. 

So here is my new goal: know my friends better than my computer. 

How am I going to accomplish this? I am still a little fuzzy on that. Basically for ever time I watch a show or do something on the computer I want to send a note or email or text or call somebody. We will see how long this lasts if at all. I really need to make a more solid plan for this to really work. 

Magnetically attractiveness

I am planning a wedding right now and it doesn't seem to be going very well. I really just want my wedding fairy to come and take care of it for me because I am not having the best of luck. For instance the style of dresses I like are all from the same manufacture who went out of business, but still has all of their products up online and it says NOWHERE that they aren't making any more. So the first dress I chose they told me that right off. The second dress I chose which I found on a different site ended up sending me a knock off which was molded, the skirt was on backwards, the waist was wrong, it chocked you and it was in the wrong size. It took me forever to find a building for my Utah reception (special thanks to Granmee for doing that). And my invitations are being difficult. And all of the how will it be done questions are stressing me out! Why am I bothering with this? I remembered why tonight while talking to Chris Watson, the man that I love, on skype. When saying good bye he inevitable expresses a wish that we were closer. I was going to make the point that I didn't go farther apart on purpose, but I did back up my stuff in a car and leave very much so on purpose. However before he could really start teasing me about that I point out that he traveled even farther than I did. His come back " I had to go that far because of your magnetically attractiveness". I just laughed and was happy to know that I was going to be with this cheese ball for eternity. I love him and that is why all of this mess before is worth it.
PS: Sorry that this makes me sound like I am going  mental about my wedding, it does express some frustrations, but the high light of it  is high lighted so you know that was the point of the post. That even when feeling stressed life is totally worth is.